Tuesday, January 17, 2006
Saturday, January 14, 2006
Ok ppz.. major announcment. I'm shutting this blog down.
It's been something i've been wanting to do for some time. But being a sentimental fool, i've been dragging my feet.
So any way, this is it. I'd like to close this chapter when i'm halfway through med school... so anyway, thanks my dear readers for the comments and the thoughts and for heating up my tag board.
. It's been an amazing journey through the past 3 years... My laughter, my tears, up and downs... all recorded into a couple of bytes in cyberspace. funny thing eh? blogs?
Sift through some old entries if you do have time. I may set up shop soon in another domain. I'll keep you guys posted... but till then :) this is XL , over and out.
It's been something i've been wanting to do for some time. But being a sentimental fool, i've been dragging my feet.
So any way, this is it. I'd like to close this chapter when i'm halfway through med school... so anyway, thanks my dear readers for the comments and the thoughts and for heating up my tag board.
. It's been an amazing journey through the past 3 years... My laughter, my tears, up and downs... all recorded into a couple of bytes in cyberspace. funny thing eh? blogs?
Sift through some old entries if you do have time. I may set up shop soon in another domain. I'll keep you guys posted... but till then :) this is XL , over and out.
Monday, January 09, 2006
Missy higgins.
I found her songs in my comp.
As i hit the play button,
i feel as though I'm being transported back to melb six months back
I feel as though I"m sitting in my room in 495 royal parade on a late night.
Lying back on my bed and just listening to the soothing tunes roll off her guitar
Looking ambivalently my possessions that litter the floor
Wondering how to pack them to prepare for moving day.
waiting for the phone to ring.
My housemate is bustling around packing her stuff outside.
Shut my eyes and wish that Mary poppins would appear and snap her fingers and put everything into their boxes.
And then the phone rings.
That was 6 months ago.
I don't recall where my CD is anymore..
It's raining outside now.
A wet singapore day.
I feel so lost..... so sad.
It's like i'm sitting once agian among my belongings and wondering where to begin.
We still end up leaving something lying around even after we seal the boxes.
i'm sorry if it hurts.
I thot i had everything in the box, guess i was wrong
Wish i could find that CD.. Yet I'm dreading that discovery.
And we will only see each other
We'll breath together,
These hands will not be taught to hold another,
Coz we're the special two.
-- Missy higgins, The Special Two
I found her songs in my comp.
As i hit the play button,
i feel as though I'm being transported back to melb six months back
I feel as though I"m sitting in my room in 495 royal parade on a late night.
Lying back on my bed and just listening to the soothing tunes roll off her guitar
Looking ambivalently my possessions that litter the floor
Wondering how to pack them to prepare for moving day.
waiting for the phone to ring.
My housemate is bustling around packing her stuff outside.
Shut my eyes and wish that Mary poppins would appear and snap her fingers and put everything into their boxes.
And then the phone rings.
That was 6 months ago.
I don't recall where my CD is anymore..
It's raining outside now.
A wet singapore day.
I feel so lost..... so sad.
It's like i'm sitting once agian among my belongings and wondering where to begin.
We still end up leaving something lying around even after we seal the boxes.
i'm sorry if it hurts.
I thot i had everything in the box, guess i was wrong
Wish i could find that CD.. Yet I'm dreading that discovery.
And we will only see each other
We'll breath together,
These hands will not be taught to hold another,
Coz we're the special two.
-- Missy higgins, The Special Two
Sunday, January 08, 2006
Where did time go?
I was dragging my feet to the lab on a saturday morning. While i was fumbling with my car keys, my H/p beeped.
" I just got a new daughter this morning!" you could practically sense the euphoria jumping right out from BS's sms.
Ahh... time flies so fast. Juz last week he was pacing around the lab lamenting about how he was scared becoming a father. And suddenly, bam. Juz in a few days he was a dad! heee.. Congrats to him :P
Standing there, grinning at my h/p screen , besides realising that ppl were staring at me and wondering why i was walking towards the psych ward, it hit me.... gosh. i' was really getting old.
Friends getting married, friends having kids. This would be the 3rd instance already. i'm gonna be 22 this year. *gasp*
I always tell my friends , it used to be " my parents' frens getting married/ having kids." now it's my frens having kids/ getting married.
I woke up this morning and it was poring rain outside. And my sister was talking about her JC orientation. Suddenly, I kept thinking of the old RJC campus . I thot about Lecture theatre 1, where I sat out most of my lectures, in my old black sweater. where we used to eat behind our notes and try to keep awake. And the container block that held our tutorial rooms. Where the rain would pore down and make a deafening noise on the metal roof ( and irritate the crap out of the teachers). HOw I used to haunt my chemistry teacher after lessons to try to make more sense out of my favourite topic. The dingy science labs with their rotting tables.... the horrible toilets with no toilet paper. The corners I used to coop myself up in to study after classes. THe choir tables.. the choir pple... I realised I wasn't very sociable in school. Never really knew a lot of ppl very well. Just a small handful. Couldn't really bothered. How my class was super competitive. How the RI GEPs Genius club in my class always dominated the top marks in the faculty. Studying for tests. spending chemistry and math S paper classes playing in class. Acapella group practise late into the night, followed by trips to Ghim Moh market. Choir Comm meetings, politics, cat fights...
And i see my sister now excitedly talking to her fren about orientation.
It scares me. How time moves.
" Did you know Daniel's fren is in sec one?" my sister told me.
Sec one??? How come daniel's fren is so old? i wondered.
Then it hit me that my kid brother is no longer a small little lower primary guy anymore. He was entering sec school next year.
I had dinner with BY yesterday. My ole' secondary one pal.. We go back 8 years. 8 years.. HOLY CRAP. weren't we in secondary one just yesterday? I was in that stupid haircut and the red name tags.
Now here we were sitting at MOS burgers and talking about BY's graduation.
Nooooooooooooooooooo.... someone stop the clock. I don't wanna grow up yet.
I don't wanna face the world .
Let me go back to the old RGS/RJC buildings, where i only had to worry about lectures and CCA.
" You shoudl read about financial management," BY told me. " It's time we started planning our investments."
* SCREAM*
I was dragging my feet to the lab on a saturday morning. While i was fumbling with my car keys, my H/p beeped.
" I just got a new daughter this morning!" you could practically sense the euphoria jumping right out from BS's sms.
Ahh... time flies so fast. Juz last week he was pacing around the lab lamenting about how he was scared becoming a father. And suddenly, bam. Juz in a few days he was a dad! heee.. Congrats to him :P
Standing there, grinning at my h/p screen , besides realising that ppl were staring at me and wondering why i was walking towards the psych ward, it hit me.... gosh. i' was really getting old.
Friends getting married, friends having kids. This would be the 3rd instance already. i'm gonna be 22 this year. *gasp*
I always tell my friends , it used to be " my parents' frens getting married/ having kids." now it's my frens having kids/ getting married.
I woke up this morning and it was poring rain outside. And my sister was talking about her JC orientation. Suddenly, I kept thinking of the old RJC campus . I thot about Lecture theatre 1, where I sat out most of my lectures, in my old black sweater. where we used to eat behind our notes and try to keep awake. And the container block that held our tutorial rooms. Where the rain would pore down and make a deafening noise on the metal roof ( and irritate the crap out of the teachers). HOw I used to haunt my chemistry teacher after lessons to try to make more sense out of my favourite topic. The dingy science labs with their rotting tables.... the horrible toilets with no toilet paper. The corners I used to coop myself up in to study after classes. THe choir tables.. the choir pple... I realised I wasn't very sociable in school. Never really knew a lot of ppl very well. Just a small handful. Couldn't really bothered. How my class was super competitive. How the RI GEPs Genius club in my class always dominated the top marks in the faculty. Studying for tests. spending chemistry and math S paper classes playing in class. Acapella group practise late into the night, followed by trips to Ghim Moh market. Choir Comm meetings, politics, cat fights...
And i see my sister now excitedly talking to her fren about orientation.
It scares me. How time moves.
" Did you know Daniel's fren is in sec one?" my sister told me.
Sec one??? How come daniel's fren is so old? i wondered.
Then it hit me that my kid brother is no longer a small little lower primary guy anymore. He was entering sec school next year.
I had dinner with BY yesterday. My ole' secondary one pal.. We go back 8 years. 8 years.. HOLY CRAP. weren't we in secondary one just yesterday? I was in that stupid haircut and the red name tags.
Now here we were sitting at MOS burgers and talking about BY's graduation.
Nooooooooooooooooooo.... someone stop the clock. I don't wanna grow up yet.
I don't wanna face the world .
Let me go back to the old RGS/RJC buildings, where i only had to worry about lectures and CCA.
" You shoudl read about financial management," BY told me. " It's time we started planning our investments."
* SCREAM*
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
NEW YEARS DAY.
Daddy took us to the STARWARS EXHIBITION.
OMG OMGOMG
It was alike a dream come through.
I saw the Imperial starship... the EXACT one in A New Hope
And and and... the TIE fighters, Xwing fighters..
And there was a whole display of collectables outside.
AND THE MILLENIUM FALCON ... DROOL
I realised how bad my starwars knowledge has become.. sheesh. I used to be sooo good in that. I used to study the starwars encyclopedia... and i could memorise the script
CRAP!
It's been waaaay tooo long
I find my lack of faith disturbing.
AHHHH.. and lightsabers that actually light up like they do in the movies.. So much better than the flicky ones my bro has. But 255 bux.. haha. my dad was drooling over it, until he saw the price tag.
And YEZ. the actual racer they used in attack of the CLones
Ooooo. millenium falcon... droool.. millenium falcon
Hahaha. hoho!
See the lightsabers.??? THEY WERE THE ACTUAL ONES OF DARTH VADAR and OBI WAN!!! * SCREAM*
i've got darth vadar on my h/p desk top now. THAT WAS THE ACTUAL 1977 ONE!!! AHHHHHH. ( wanted to hug it , and scream, but it was encased)
dad had to try to drag us out.
Swwooooon. I wanna be a jedi.. Wail..
Haha.. confession: i was an active member in theforce.net discussion boards. it was nuts. I still remember the crazy fan fic we all wrote based on episode I. haha... OMG> yez. trade federation ship was a donut! And Quigon quite Twacking Obi wan.. haha..
Ok. i'm not making anysense.... sorry. i'm so pumped up.
" Xueling Xueling, come and look at yourslef.." my dad waved to me .
" Where where????" I happily ran into the section.
Only to see my dad pointing at Jabba the HUTT
May the force be with you.
Daddy took us to the STARWARS EXHIBITION.
OMG OMGOMG
It was alike a dream come through.
I saw the Imperial starship... the EXACT one in A New Hope
And and and... the TIE fighters, Xwing fighters..
And there was a whole display of collectables outside.
AND THE MILLENIUM FALCON ... DROOL
I realised how bad my starwars knowledge has become.. sheesh. I used to be sooo good in that. I used to study the starwars encyclopedia... and i could memorise the script
CRAP!
It's been waaaay tooo long
I find my lack of faith disturbing.
AHHHH.. and lightsabers that actually light up like they do in the movies.. So much better than the flicky ones my bro has. But 255 bux.. haha. my dad was drooling over it, until he saw the price tag.
And YEZ. the actual racer they used in attack of the CLones
Ooooo. millenium falcon... droool.. millenium falcon
Hahaha. hoho!
See the lightsabers.??? THEY WERE THE ACTUAL ONES OF DARTH VADAR and OBI WAN!!! * SCREAM*
i've got darth vadar on my h/p desk top now. THAT WAS THE ACTUAL 1977 ONE!!! AHHHHHH. ( wanted to hug it , and scream, but it was encased)
dad had to try to drag us out.
Swwooooon. I wanna be a jedi.. Wail..
Haha.. confession: i was an active member in theforce.net discussion boards. it was nuts. I still remember the crazy fan fic we all wrote based on episode I. haha... OMG> yez. trade federation ship was a donut! And Quigon quite Twacking Obi wan.. haha..
Ok. i'm not making anysense.... sorry. i'm so pumped up.
" Xueling Xueling, come and look at yourslef.." my dad waved to me .
" Where where????" I happily ran into the section.
Only to see my dad pointing at Jabba the HUTT
May the force be with you.
Sunday, January 01, 2006
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
Ah well. spent the last day of 2005 at BF. Went with Dan and Jo. The surreal thing was halfway through service, Jo tapped me and said.. " hey, y H is at the back>" I turned around to see a whole bunch of my family frens behind. Zara, Zoe, Yihern, Yiping, Maxin, Charmaine.. heh :P so funny. i've not seen them for a year alreadi. We didn't get to meet up for Christmas.. so we weren't expecting the next meeting till CNY> Usually the SIA kids are excluded from New year gatherings... fancy meeting at BF instead!
2005
Wat can i say.
SO many things in so short a time.
I watched people fall in and out of love
I wasn't spared either by cruel cupid's arrow.
Guess he was having a good time at target practise LOL
Made some pretty bad decisions.
Landed in some pretty uncomfy situations.
On a higher note..
I got to dance more -- dance is therapeutic and stressful at the same time.. haha.. try this gals.! it's weight bashing too!
Got to drive more.
Quite happy with my results.
landed in a lab with the craziest ppl on earth.
And The BIG thank yous for the year...
thankgoodness for my friends.. lz, j9, aiai, wy, hilda, baoyue.. were there to help me through the roughest points of the year and make me smile again. esp Lz and janine... my parnter in crime and my ex-housemate who never failed to check in on me to see if i was going ok.
Thanks to the melb uni medknobs who made life so much more fun..
Thanks to the BFyouths who helped keep me close to the DHarma and made it so much fun.
I got to sing on stage again.. Thanks to Soracco.. I missed that soooo much after JC.
And last but not least: a big hug and thanks you to my mom, dad, my sis and bro.. i' m really blessed to have such a supportive family who is always there for me.
New years resolutions?
1) Gotta tone up more....MOre dance! I guess losing weight won't hurt either hehheh.. wish i was like.. 45kg or smth..
2) Want to be more patient and even tempered
3) I wanna be stronger, not so vulnerable
4) I wanna be more careful of where I tread in life. and make better decisions
5) I wanna be taller.... ( okok.. *slap slap* this is getting ridiculous)
Happy NEW Year everyone!!
Ah well. spent the last day of 2005 at BF. Went with Dan and Jo. The surreal thing was halfway through service, Jo tapped me and said.. " hey, y H is at the back>" I turned around to see a whole bunch of my family frens behind. Zara, Zoe, Yihern, Yiping, Maxin, Charmaine.. heh :P so funny. i've not seen them for a year alreadi. We didn't get to meet up for Christmas.. so we weren't expecting the next meeting till CNY> Usually the SIA kids are excluded from New year gatherings... fancy meeting at BF instead!
2005
Wat can i say.
SO many things in so short a time.
I watched people fall in and out of love
I wasn't spared either by cruel cupid's arrow.
Guess he was having a good time at target practise LOL
Made some pretty bad decisions.
Landed in some pretty uncomfy situations.
On a higher note..
I got to dance more -- dance is therapeutic and stressful at the same time.. haha.. try this gals.! it's weight bashing too!
Got to drive more.
Quite happy with my results.
landed in a lab with the craziest ppl on earth.
And The BIG thank yous for the year...
thankgoodness for my friends.. lz, j9, aiai, wy, hilda, baoyue.. were there to help me through the roughest points of the year and make me smile again. esp Lz and janine... my parnter in crime and my ex-housemate who never failed to check in on me to see if i was going ok.
Thanks to the melb uni medknobs who made life so much more fun..
Thanks to the BFyouths who helped keep me close to the DHarma and made it so much fun.
I got to sing on stage again.. Thanks to Soracco.. I missed that soooo much after JC.
And last but not least: a big hug and thanks you to my mom, dad, my sis and bro.. i' m really blessed to have such a supportive family who is always there for me.
New years resolutions?
1) Gotta tone up more....MOre dance! I guess losing weight won't hurt either hehheh.. wish i was like.. 45kg or smth..
2) Want to be more patient and even tempered
3) I wanna be stronger, not so vulnerable
4) I wanna be more careful of where I tread in life. and make better decisions
5) I wanna be taller.... ( okok.. *slap slap* this is getting ridiculous)
Happy NEW Year everyone!!
