Sunday, November 28, 2004
Buddhism and Ah bengs.
I really really deplore the image TCS potrays of Buddhism. I was watching Happy Fish II when the character Long ge ( a good-for-nothing gangster) was praying desperately for his girlfren and her unborn children's lives. He really ping re bu shao xiang, ling shi bao fo jiao.. It struck me that that was how TCS potrayed Buddhist pple as.. the perpetual ah soh.. the ah longs ( gangsters), the lower class pple.. while all the lawyers and teh doctors enjoyed being associated with other religions.
Although I must admit that most peopl really don't have an idea of what Buddhism is. It has been mixed up too much with taoism and ancestral worship. As a kid, I was brought to all these temples and told to pray to the gods and goddesses . After years of asking and asking from these heavenly beings.. who range from the Goddess of Mercy, to Confucious to the idol of a deity whose name still eludes me... I started feeling disillusioned. Yez.. and truth be told.. the pple praying around me were ah sohs and ah peks, clutching cans full of sticks and the red "lips" , asking for favours and staring in anticipation at the answers they received from tossing the items they beheld in their hands.
Thankfully Trudy saved me and showed me gently to the path by leading me to Fo guang Shan Art gallery. After being reintroduced to my faith, I finally understood the teachings that the great Buddha compassionately gave to men. It is upsetting how many pple are turned away from this beautiful faith becoz of the image it has been given by the media.
"The religion of the future will be a cosmic religion. It should transcend a personal God and avoid dogmas and theology. Covering both natural and spiritual, it should be based on a religious sense arising from the experience of all things, natural and spiritual and a meaningful unity. Buddhism answers this description. If there is any religion that would cope with modern scientific needs, it would be Buddhism." Albert Einstein
I really really deplore the image TCS potrays of Buddhism. I was watching Happy Fish II when the character Long ge ( a good-for-nothing gangster) was praying desperately for his girlfren and her unborn children's lives. He really ping re bu shao xiang, ling shi bao fo jiao.. It struck me that that was how TCS potrayed Buddhist pple as.. the perpetual ah soh.. the ah longs ( gangsters), the lower class pple.. while all the lawyers and teh doctors enjoyed being associated with other religions.
Although I must admit that most peopl really don't have an idea of what Buddhism is. It has been mixed up too much with taoism and ancestral worship. As a kid, I was brought to all these temples and told to pray to the gods and goddesses . After years of asking and asking from these heavenly beings.. who range from the Goddess of Mercy, to Confucious to the idol of a deity whose name still eludes me... I started feeling disillusioned. Yez.. and truth be told.. the pple praying around me were ah sohs and ah peks, clutching cans full of sticks and the red "lips" , asking for favours and staring in anticipation at the answers they received from tossing the items they beheld in their hands.
Thankfully Trudy saved me and showed me gently to the path by leading me to Fo guang Shan Art gallery. After being reintroduced to my faith, I finally understood the teachings that the great Buddha compassionately gave to men. It is upsetting how many pple are turned away from this beautiful faith becoz of the image it has been given by the media.
"The religion of the future will be a cosmic religion. It should transcend a personal God and avoid dogmas and theology. Covering both natural and spiritual, it should be based on a religious sense arising from the experience of all things, natural and spiritual and a meaningful unity. Buddhism answers this description. If there is any religion that would cope with modern scientific needs, it would be Buddhism." Albert Einstein
http://www.buddhanet.net/1-gqga.htm
this is an awesome site.
groan.. still can't find gainful employment.. lz and aiai's suggestion to go back early sounds good. thiz sux.. praying that karen can help me get that waitressing job.
Hols are becoming somewat of a bore.. Interestingly enuff, i seem to be seeing my melb kakki more than my sporean frens. i think i juz realised how incredibly anti-social i 've been in spore. i think i've more frens in melb put togehter than my social circle estb here in spore in my 20 years spent on earth. neway,I met cherie babe in teh morning ( yez.. 2 years of sepeartion ... OMG) , and then met lz.. fell asleep in the orchard lib.. then we met aiai for some free salsa thingy at tanglin mall.. quite fun. wanna take salsa in melb uni :)
2day. went temple.. wanted to go lib.. but had to get home early.. very nice to hear the prayers again.. The reverends at FO guang shan singapore have awesome harmony. Very soothing.. THe lecture was good.. , I was kicking myself for not bringing pencil and paper to take down her speech. she went thru a couple of proverbs.. quite funny.. she was joking that on xmas we'll be holdling a special prayer for the poor turkey's on the dinner tables.. LOL .. really feel like going vegan at times like thiz.. hai. if only i can summon enuff self discipline to curb my attachement with my desires. for the mmt , i'll just try to observe the 3 guidelines for meat eating. Coudln't find a young adult group to join and the classes were winding up for th ened of the year.. Wanted to volunteer to help run a kid's camp. but the dates clash with my trip to KL.. groan. Gosh, i miss the BLIA group in melb... Wonder how everyone is back in melb. waiting for karen and trudy to come join me.. then can go for service together!!!
20 years. eek. funny telling ppl i'm 20. this guy at the temple did a double take when I told him i was 20. Ok.. still look 16 i guess, with my hair tied back and in my sister's blouse and jeans. quite funny.. i recall i greeted my dad's copilot in the hotel as "uncle," without looking at his face carefully. he was like.. " Huh??? UNCLE??? but i'm so young!!!:
crap. I wanted to die of embarrassemnt, my dad was laughing and laughing. Well.. the intention to be polite backfired. Seriously, who do you call uncle /auntie ? i 'm constantly reminded of my new big 20 age.. by my younger frens. Cherie was gleefully rubbing it in. Yez gal.. i know you're 17. :) enjoy it manz.. b4 age catches up with you. literally.
Hols are becoming somewat of a bore.. Interestingly enuff, i seem to be seeing my melb kakki more than my sporean frens. i think i juz realised how incredibly anti-social i 've been in spore. i think i've more frens in melb put togehter than my social circle estb here in spore in my 20 years spent on earth. neway,I met cherie babe in teh morning ( yez.. 2 years of sepeartion ... OMG) , and then met lz.. fell asleep in the orchard lib.. then we met aiai for some free salsa thingy at tanglin mall.. quite fun. wanna take salsa in melb uni :)
2day. went temple.. wanted to go lib.. but had to get home early.. very nice to hear the prayers again.. The reverends at FO guang shan singapore have awesome harmony. Very soothing.. THe lecture was good.. , I was kicking myself for not bringing pencil and paper to take down her speech. she went thru a couple of proverbs.. quite funny.. she was joking that on xmas we'll be holdling a special prayer for the poor turkey's on the dinner tables.. LOL .. really feel like going vegan at times like thiz.. hai. if only i can summon enuff self discipline to curb my attachement with my desires. for the mmt , i'll just try to observe the 3 guidelines for meat eating. Coudln't find a young adult group to join and the classes were winding up for th ened of the year.. Wanted to volunteer to help run a kid's camp. but the dates clash with my trip to KL.. groan. Gosh, i miss the BLIA group in melb... Wonder how everyone is back in melb. waiting for karen and trudy to come join me.. then can go for service together!!!
20 years. eek. funny telling ppl i'm 20. this guy at the temple did a double take when I told him i was 20. Ok.. still look 16 i guess, with my hair tied back and in my sister's blouse and jeans. quite funny.. i recall i greeted my dad's copilot in the hotel as "uncle," without looking at his face carefully. he was like.. " Huh??? UNCLE??? but i'm so young!!!:
crap. I wanted to die of embarrassemnt, my dad was laughing and laughing. Well.. the intention to be polite backfired. Seriously, who do you call uncle /auntie ? i 'm constantly reminded of my new big 20 age.. by my younger frens. Cherie was gleefully rubbing it in. Yez gal.. i know you're 17. :) enjoy it manz.. b4 age catches up with you. literally.
Saturday, November 27, 2004
MAMAMIa!
I knew dad was one of his moods again. He had been blastnig ABBA songs all morning on the computer... a subtle gesture to try to get us kids to listen. My sister and I shrugged, shut our room door and turned on Usher on teh radio. But dad wasn't gonnna let up. ABBA still found it's way into our room.
We were gonna watch mama mia... and dad was determined to get us kids pumped up and ready to go. So he bundled all of us in the car.... I was busily scheming how to get him to let me drive the car when the strains of ABBA's Waterloo interuptted my thougths..
Before long, I had lost any notion of asking to take over the wheel and joined my family crooning to the catchy tunes of ABBA. by the time we got to the esplanade.. we had probably sung a good number of the songs that was going to be presented later in the musical
That's the amusing yet lovable thing about my family. we tend to go into crazes together.. 4 example, with music.. We go crazed over the same thing at the same point of time. wheter it be elton john, ABBA, michael jackson, etc.. the car will be turned into a makeshift karaoke room. My dad's the ring leader of these crazes.. I can still recall my mom rolling her eyes in exasperatio as my dad, my bro and me excitedly pored over starwars toys in the store or the latest star wars game.
lastest craze? table soccer and ABBA. I sense a huge starwars craze appearing next year ( oh yez.. a disturbance in the force) ...
now where did i put that light saber?
I knew dad was one of his moods again. He had been blastnig ABBA songs all morning on the computer... a subtle gesture to try to get us kids to listen. My sister and I shrugged, shut our room door and turned on Usher on teh radio. But dad wasn't gonnna let up. ABBA still found it's way into our room.
We were gonna watch mama mia... and dad was determined to get us kids pumped up and ready to go. So he bundled all of us in the car.... I was busily scheming how to get him to let me drive the car when the strains of ABBA's Waterloo interuptted my thougths..
Before long, I had lost any notion of asking to take over the wheel and joined my family crooning to the catchy tunes of ABBA. by the time we got to the esplanade.. we had probably sung a good number of the songs that was going to be presented later in the musical
That's the amusing yet lovable thing about my family. we tend to go into crazes together.. 4 example, with music.. We go crazed over the same thing at the same point of time. wheter it be elton john, ABBA, michael jackson, etc.. the car will be turned into a makeshift karaoke room. My dad's the ring leader of these crazes.. I can still recall my mom rolling her eyes in exasperatio as my dad, my bro and me excitedly pored over starwars toys in the store or the latest star wars game.
lastest craze? table soccer and ABBA. I sense a huge starwars craze appearing next year ( oh yez.. a disturbance in the force) ...
now where did i put that light saber?
Friday, November 26, 2004
life's been a whirlwind since i came home.. meet pplz meet pplz.. :) nice to see everyone again. :P to the pplz in melb.. I"M STUFFING MY FACE.. mizz u guys.. LOL.. my no. one fan!!!! i miss my baobei in melb.. my xiao baobein in singpoare is now where as good.. WAIL. baobei!!!!! ( Watched incredibles DAMN funnie!.. siblings want me to bring 'em again to watch today.. OF CORSE!!! good excuse to go.. haha. riece wanted me to watch shutter with her.. if there's one thing i won't do.. that's watch horror moveis. I think i've enuff nightmares to last me a lifetime w/o adding to my memories in my hippocampus. thanks.
been driving quite a bit.. made some errors.. but getting a bit more experience. i drove my family to seletar and back about 3 times this week alone. yay.. picked up dad from work last night.. did some really stupid mistake on the road. i'ts a bit freaky driving with the family in tow. there really is NO room for error.
crossing my fingers.. hope TLL calls me up. i applied for a job there.. pllease.. i need the $$..
been driving quite a bit.. made some errors.. but getting a bit more experience. i drove my family to seletar and back about 3 times this week alone. yay.. picked up dad from work last night.. did some really stupid mistake on the road. i'ts a bit freaky driving with the family in tow. there really is NO room for error.
crossing my fingers.. hope TLL calls me up. i applied for a job there.. pllease.. i need the $$..
this sem has taken it's toll on me.... my brain's said goodbye too many times beforeeeeee....
can't believe year 2 has ended... it's scarey.. like Riece was musing.. when you think back about your primary school dayz.. it seems like you've walked into a whole new chapter of your life. lOL>. i didn't know i am actually riece's senior in TNS... GO TAO NANITES!!!
neuro science.. I quote from the counter handbook " you might as well resign yourself to fact that you'll be spending every night getting cozy with kandel instead of your bf/gf"
well, since i had no bf or gf to cozy up to in teh first place, i had to dump my darrrling. cardio notes and settle up close with kandel.. Awwwww. seriously. i can't even imagine how i managed to stuff all that kandel in my brain. ok.. at least try to. there's nothing left in the brain... ( percusses brain) empty.. no?? sounds hollow..
the sem was challenging. as our seniors made it out to be.. but they never mentioned how challenging the other aspects of our lives would be. I think i mentioned to someone.. " gosh, i feeel like i'm being hit by a train every week "
yeah. the sem was somewhat like tat. . let's see.. bag theft, pseudo house break in , black out, ski fall, jazz bars ( with unbelievably bad jazz band) , jazz bars ( with cool singers).. , bbqs, going up hills, suntanning on the beach, yum char yum char.. , super super bad pre exam frenzy, loads of surprise parrrties..
" been there , done that>"
yup. was challenging.. glad it's done.. but i had a blast ploughing this sem :P
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can't believe year 2 has ended... it's scarey.. like Riece was musing.. when you think back about your primary school dayz.. it seems like you've walked into a whole new chapter of your life. lOL>. i didn't know i am actually riece's senior in TNS... GO TAO NANITES!!!
neuro science.. I quote from the counter handbook " you might as well resign yourself to fact that you'll be spending every night getting cozy with kandel instead of your bf/gf"
well, since i had no bf or gf to cozy up to in teh first place, i had to dump my darrrling. cardio notes and settle up close with kandel.. Awwwww. seriously. i can't even imagine how i managed to stuff all that kandel in my brain. ok.. at least try to. there's nothing left in the brain... ( percusses brain) empty.. no?? sounds hollow..
the sem was challenging. as our seniors made it out to be.. but they never mentioned how challenging the other aspects of our lives would be. I think i mentioned to someone.. " gosh, i feeel like i'm being hit by a train every week "
yeah. the sem was somewhat like tat. . let's see.. bag theft, pseudo house break in , black out, ski fall, jazz bars ( with unbelievably bad jazz band) , jazz bars ( with cool singers).. , bbqs, going up hills, suntanning on the beach, yum char yum char.. , super super bad pre exam frenzy, loads of surprise parrrties..
" been there , done that>"
yup. was challenging.. glad it's done.. but i had a blast ploughing this sem :P
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Wednesday, November 24, 2004
A couple of days back in singapore and i've HOMEWORK???
OMg.. Dr. shek happily piled me with reading for AMS project. I was just staring miserably at the peds immuno book yesterday. CD 4 , MHC II , WTF, i don't recall a single thing. Actullay, i don't know a single tihng coz immuno is like next sem???!!!! I should have worked on my puss in boots look ( right char? ) reckon it might have made a diff :)
meeting ppl, meeting ppl , meeting ppl. Some ppz having exams. ( Brings out the pompoms.. GO PPL GO!!!). Went to the gym with mom and sister.. and straight to the prata store after.. LOL.. so much for wanting to lose weight. PLus everytime i go out with pplz. i eat. And truth be told.. i meet more than one person in a day... do the maths.. and behold my waistline.
Ok lah.. managed to do like 3km on the treadmill. THank goodness i was disciplined and did joggin in melbourne.. otherwise, i doubt i could even do 1km. But unfortunately, i still look like bridget jones. SO 4get it.. sigh. hai.. why do i keep losing my battle with the bulge.. Groan. I hate it , i hate every inch of myself.. no waist, thunderthighs, short, round face... lousy haircut. The list goes on. Mom says i've a major inferiority complex. Well, she's right. I think it started in sec school when someone told me i was fat. ( imagine, i was underweight when she told me that. ) well. tat kinda shattered my self esteem. I suppose it's still in bits. doesn't hlep i kept putting on the pounds... firstly coz i was in gym .. then after that cfoz the muscle just melted into fat... fast forward a couple of years. here I am 20, and flabby. i'm not even thinking abt marraige and kids.. sheesh. i think i'm gonna need to get a whole new wardrobe.
but then again, when i take a look at wat i have, following wat Buddha has guides me to see, .. i guess that changes my perspective :) yeah, life's great :) even if i don't look great LOL.. yay!
OMg.. Dr. shek happily piled me with reading for AMS project. I was just staring miserably at the peds immuno book yesterday. CD 4 , MHC II , WTF, i don't recall a single thing. Actullay, i don't know a single tihng coz immuno is like next sem???!!!! I should have worked on my puss in boots look ( right char? ) reckon it might have made a diff :)
meeting ppl, meeting ppl , meeting ppl. Some ppz having exams. ( Brings out the pompoms.. GO PPL GO!!!). Went to the gym with mom and sister.. and straight to the prata store after.. LOL.. so much for wanting to lose weight. PLus everytime i go out with pplz. i eat. And truth be told.. i meet more than one person in a day... do the maths.. and behold my waistline.
Ok lah.. managed to do like 3km on the treadmill. THank goodness i was disciplined and did joggin in melbourne.. otherwise, i doubt i could even do 1km. But unfortunately, i still look like bridget jones. SO 4get it.. sigh. hai.. why do i keep losing my battle with the bulge.. Groan. I hate it , i hate every inch of myself.. no waist, thunderthighs, short, round face... lousy haircut. The list goes on. Mom says i've a major inferiority complex. Well, she's right. I think it started in sec school when someone told me i was fat. ( imagine, i was underweight when she told me that. ) well. tat kinda shattered my self esteem. I suppose it's still in bits. doesn't hlep i kept putting on the pounds... firstly coz i was in gym .. then after that cfoz the muscle just melted into fat... fast forward a couple of years. here I am 20, and flabby. i'm not even thinking abt marraige and kids.. sheesh. i think i'm gonna need to get a whole new wardrobe.
but then again, when i take a look at wat i have, following wat Buddha has guides me to see, .. i guess that changes my perspective :) yeah, life's great :) even if i don't look great LOL.. yay!
Tuesday, November 23, 2004
A crazy thing called love
ok. i'll 4get for a moment that love is made up on neurotransmitters and continue my endless musings on this topic.
just watched LOve me if you dare on the plane.
It was about thiz couple who was passionately in love but their competitive streak kept them apart. oh.. the crazy things they did.. but after one disastrous dare, they seperated for 10 years. the guy ended up with your usual one wife, 2 kids, steady job... nice car kinda lifestyle. the gal married this dude who became a big soccer star. but behind it all, they were both still yearning for that crazy , dangerous kinda love. one very potent scene was when they met up again 10 years later, and they engaged in a dare where the guy drove at 240km away from teh police. his eyes just lit up, and the boyish , crazy grin returned to his drawn, but handsome face. Another scene that stuck was when they met again and walked towards each other, in teh rain, with their spouses staring at them. they eschewed their stable lives for their crazy, selfish love. their final dare was to be buried togehter life in cement. And there they remained, encased int eh concrete block, the only way they could be togehter...
crazy eh? you would say, which wacko would abandone his kids to be in a concrete block. but the movie had a subtle message... without love , life would be empty. Even if the love was dangerous, crazy, wrong and utterly utterly suicidal... it's still worth the leap of faith.
But i've seen the other side of love.. the one in real life that really really touched my heart. The love the sister of a schizophrenic patient showed her sister.. The love the patient with achondroplasia had for her partner and her love for her life the person that she was. The love a carer had for her husband who had alzhiemers.. and who needed to be dressed, fed and bathed by her... who could no longer recognise her or talk to her.. who soiled himself everynight and who made her cry with despair.. The love the old lady had for her husband who had vascular dementia , whom we met in mornington peninsula.
That was the love i was in love with. the love wasn't that churning, on the edge sort that the film glorified, but it was the commitment and the sacrifices these pple made. . i've had the pleasue aND honour of meeting them these semester..
That , my dear... is real love.
ok. i'll 4get for a moment that love is made up on neurotransmitters and continue my endless musings on this topic.
just watched LOve me if you dare on the plane.
It was about thiz couple who was passionately in love but their competitive streak kept them apart. oh.. the crazy things they did.. but after one disastrous dare, they seperated for 10 years. the guy ended up with your usual one wife, 2 kids, steady job... nice car kinda lifestyle. the gal married this dude who became a big soccer star. but behind it all, they were both still yearning for that crazy , dangerous kinda love. one very potent scene was when they met up again 10 years later, and they engaged in a dare where the guy drove at 240km away from teh police. his eyes just lit up, and the boyish , crazy grin returned to his drawn, but handsome face. Another scene that stuck was when they met again and walked towards each other, in teh rain, with their spouses staring at them. they eschewed their stable lives for their crazy, selfish love. their final dare was to be buried togehter life in cement. And there they remained, encased int eh concrete block, the only way they could be togehter...
crazy eh? you would say, which wacko would abandone his kids to be in a concrete block. but the movie had a subtle message... without love , life would be empty. Even if the love was dangerous, crazy, wrong and utterly utterly suicidal... it's still worth the leap of faith.
But i've seen the other side of love.. the one in real life that really really touched my heart. The love the sister of a schizophrenic patient showed her sister.. The love the patient with achondroplasia had for her partner and her love for her life the person that she was. The love a carer had for her husband who had alzhiemers.. and who needed to be dressed, fed and bathed by her... who could no longer recognise her or talk to her.. who soiled himself everynight and who made her cry with despair.. The love the old lady had for her husband who had vascular dementia , whom we met in mornington peninsula.
That was the love i was in love with. the love wasn't that churning, on the edge sort that the film glorified, but it was the commitment and the sacrifices these pple made. . i've had the pleasue aND honour of meeting them these semester..
That , my dear... is real love.
Monday, November 22, 2004
I'm home.
It's kinda weird coming home this time. Daddy came to bring me back. So nice to sit back and let him handle stuff, usually i'm super stressed when it comes to going home. From trying to get a seat home, to hurrying to the plane with twenty minutes to spare to planning my trip to the airport and making sure my luggage is safely together, it's not much fun.
Spent the night at grandhyatt.. then went to temple in the morning.. Met Reverend Yu to talk about her speech later. SHe was gonna lecture on the law of cause of effect. here's the freaky story .. ti's a true thing from america ( the weirdest things happen there)
THis guy called A lept off the 11th story of the a block of flats. An apparent suicide the police said at first, after finding the suicide note. But the weird thing was this guy didn't die from falling, he died from a shot to his head.The shot had come from teh 9th story where an old couple had an arguement. the old man had fired a shot at his wife, but it missed her and hit the falling A instead
So the old man was charged for murder. But furhter investigation revealed that he usually used the gun to threaten his wife during arguement coz he knew it was unloaded. After that, they found out that the gun had been loaded 6 months earlier by the couple's son who was angry that his mother had stopped giving him financial support and wanted to take advantage of his parents' violent arguements to get his mom killed by his dad. So the son was the murder by default.
GUess whot eh son was? none other than A .
Freaky manz..
neway, translation went great! Thank you Shi jia mo ni fo for you guidence and for giving me strenght to spread the word of the Dharma!!! :)
then back to hotel.. took the crew bus with papa. hai.. so nice to seat back and relax and let parent take care of everything. it's really a luxury. Really proud looking at my dad looking so utter COOL in his uniform.
The inflight supervisor was sooo funny. He was handing me my menu and was like.. "hey, want nething from the bar??? I promise not to tell daddy." ahhh. :) ( rubs hands) ok.. i'd like a vodka.. nahhh..
so happy. ti was a mega top!!! SKY SUITES!!! 60 MOVIES!!! watch and watch.. geez. yay.. watched ella enchanted and Love me if you dare. the latter movie was pretty thot provoking.. blog about it later.. see next entry. and was halfway thru Whose line was it anyway.. ( and praying.. Dadddy.. don't turn off the entertaiment yet.. ) . but he did.. crap. so didn't complete my show.. groan. and oh yez.. there was an announcement for a doctor half way.. I was like praying. " PLEASE. someone be on board!!!!) thank the Bodhisattvas she was ok!
Reached spore, and GUESS WHO WAS ON MY FLIGTH??? AMY CHEONG>.. SCREAM!!!! haha.. so happy to see her.
neway, nice to see my bed and the food again!!! good to be back pplz.. :)
btw, mew.. GOOD LUCK GOOD LUCK for exams. YOU CAN DO IT BABE!
It's kinda weird coming home this time. Daddy came to bring me back. So nice to sit back and let him handle stuff, usually i'm super stressed when it comes to going home. From trying to get a seat home, to hurrying to the plane with twenty minutes to spare to planning my trip to the airport and making sure my luggage is safely together, it's not much fun.
Spent the night at grandhyatt.. then went to temple in the morning.. Met Reverend Yu to talk about her speech later. SHe was gonna lecture on the law of cause of effect. here's the freaky story .. ti's a true thing from america ( the weirdest things happen there)
THis guy called A lept off the 11th story of the a block of flats. An apparent suicide the police said at first, after finding the suicide note. But the weird thing was this guy didn't die from falling, he died from a shot to his head.The shot had come from teh 9th story where an old couple had an arguement. the old man had fired a shot at his wife, but it missed her and hit the falling A instead
So the old man was charged for murder. But furhter investigation revealed that he usually used the gun to threaten his wife during arguement coz he knew it was unloaded. After that, they found out that the gun had been loaded 6 months earlier by the couple's son who was angry that his mother had stopped giving him financial support and wanted to take advantage of his parents' violent arguements to get his mom killed by his dad. So the son was the murder by default.
GUess whot eh son was? none other than A .
Freaky manz..
neway, translation went great! Thank you Shi jia mo ni fo for you guidence and for giving me strenght to spread the word of the Dharma!!! :)
then back to hotel.. took the crew bus with papa. hai.. so nice to seat back and relax and let parent take care of everything. it's really a luxury. Really proud looking at my dad looking so utter COOL in his uniform.
The inflight supervisor was sooo funny. He was handing me my menu and was like.. "hey, want nething from the bar??? I promise not to tell daddy." ahhh. :) ( rubs hands) ok.. i'd like a vodka.. nahhh..
so happy. ti was a mega top!!! SKY SUITES!!! 60 MOVIES!!! watch and watch.. geez. yay.. watched ella enchanted and Love me if you dare. the latter movie was pretty thot provoking.. blog about it later.. see next entry. and was halfway thru Whose line was it anyway.. ( and praying.. Dadddy.. don't turn off the entertaiment yet.. ) . but he did.. crap. so didn't complete my show.. groan. and oh yez.. there was an announcement for a doctor half way.. I was like praying. " PLEASE. someone be on board!!!!) thank the Bodhisattvas she was ok!
Reached spore, and GUESS WHO WAS ON MY FLIGTH??? AMY CHEONG>.. SCREAM!!!! haha.. so happy to see her.
neway, nice to see my bed and the food again!!! good to be back pplz.. :)
btw, mew.. GOOD LUCK GOOD LUCK for exams. YOU CAN DO IT BABE!
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
HEYHEYHEY!!!!
exams are OVER baby!
damn, it's fucking good to be free. manz.
neway, yupz. considering my frens and i were already in t holiday mood since Mcq. paper. ok. fine.
We went to teh jazz bar on sat night, decided to screw the pract paper. no mood to study neway. it was MUCH MUCH better than manchester lane. the lady was good! well, ok, her pitch was off, aesp when she went into scat, but not bad lah. i liked her songs, esp the one about the weight. I think i go thru that all the time.. I"M SO FAT!!!
so fast forward to yesterday.. lz and i went to bridge for our semester pilgrimage. didn't see much. disappointing.. only bought a belt. Then went to lz's house to dye my hair purple. terrible dye tho'... can't even see. ( sulk) nvm, mebbe i'll get hair extensions. but they're kinda ex, so thinking abt it. i'm bored with my hair.
then it was too the club. NExt blue at crown. Shit, soooooo long since i really danced my hair off. when we went, teh music wasn't really that great, but it started picking up again after nthat, so that was good. When they played usher's YEAH. i went nuts. ok. me and lz both. nic too ( he inseist volka with lime ? helps tons with disinhibition)
Today, me, aiai, nic and lz went to mornington peninsular. It was sooooo beautiful. very very fortunate nic has a car! thanks nic! gosh, i nver knew victoria had suhc beautiful places! the beaches!!! it was fantastic! and we went to teh strawberry farm and had icecream too! So SO SO nice! very very happy :) now gonna watch bridget jones diary with lz and nic. :) a bit brain dead, was navigating on the way back, so quite tired.
yay.. can go eat grecko's cake later ( jumps with joy) ... :)
juz now met this guy at the info center in mornington.. hmm. he was a little unstable mentally. i was guessing alzheimers' disease. then his wife told us that he had a stroke.
exams are OVER baby!
damn, it's fucking good to be free. manz.
neway, yupz. considering my frens and i were already in t holiday mood since Mcq. paper. ok. fine.
We went to teh jazz bar on sat night, decided to screw the pract paper. no mood to study neway. it was MUCH MUCH better than manchester lane. the lady was good! well, ok, her pitch was off, aesp when she went into scat, but not bad lah. i liked her songs, esp the one about the weight. I think i go thru that all the time.. I"M SO FAT!!!
so fast forward to yesterday.. lz and i went to bridge for our semester pilgrimage. didn't see much. disappointing.. only bought a belt. Then went to lz's house to dye my hair purple. terrible dye tho'... can't even see. ( sulk) nvm, mebbe i'll get hair extensions. but they're kinda ex, so thinking abt it. i'm bored with my hair.
then it was too the club. NExt blue at crown. Shit, soooooo long since i really danced my hair off. when we went, teh music wasn't really that great, but it started picking up again after nthat, so that was good. When they played usher's YEAH. i went nuts. ok. me and lz both. nic too ( he inseist volka with lime ? helps tons with disinhibition)
Today, me, aiai, nic and lz went to mornington peninsular. It was sooooo beautiful. very very fortunate nic has a car! thanks nic! gosh, i nver knew victoria had suhc beautiful places! the beaches!!! it was fantastic! and we went to teh strawberry farm and had icecream too! So SO SO nice! very very happy :) now gonna watch bridget jones diary with lz and nic. :) a bit brain dead, was navigating on the way back, so quite tired.
yay.. can go eat grecko's cake later ( jumps with joy) ... :)
juz now met this guy at the info center in mornington.. hmm. he was a little unstable mentally. i was guessing alzheimers' disease. then his wife told us that he had a stroke.
Friday, November 12, 2004
Post exam rants ...
EXAMS ARE OVER!!! ... okok. i'm kidding. it's almost over. i'm in no mood to study anymore.. crap. 2 more papers. but thank goodness the worst is over. so giving myself a break now.
the last week has been kinda hellish. since the study break, i've been stuck int eh lib on a daily basis with nic and char and aiai mugging my ass off, wondering why all the info bits were falling out of my head and why everything seemed so alien tho' i was supposed to have mugged it b4. Came sunday, i was like. OK. xueling, done enuff sutdying.. let's sleep and guezz wat??? i had MAJOR INSOMNIA> i think for the first time in my life, i actually sat for a 3hour paper with 3 hours of fragmented sleep. OMG. i was so horrified. And to top it off, i was allergic to coffee so that wasn't gonna pull me through my PBL and SAQ paper.
shit, i duno how i even kept awake thru the whole thing. Mebbe coz the paper was traumatic, that's why i actally could mantain a gold fish like state to finish it. Barely finish it actually. i dunno wat i was writing half the time.
went yumcha with the gang.. tried to sleep somemore and BINGO.. insomnia again. OMG. this was relaly a crisis. I had absolutely almost no contacgt with my health practise notes the whole semester and i was banking on tuesday to cram all my notes for wed's exam. But on monday night, i was too fatigued to do anything. It's scarey, having insomnia. Your eyes are wide wide open, your brain neurons are firing away ( you can almost here 'em. smoking ) but you're too tired to absorb anything. In the end, i was sooo despo, i ran to lizhen's house and got a sleepingpill from her. That helped a little, but the sleep was very fragmented. Tuesday was spent in teh lib with teh gang trying my darnest to cram a whole semester's work. We were freaking out so badly come night time. Yeah, even if the topic was my fav.. sex. I was too tired to enjoy studying it. Thank goodness sleep came that night and the exam was not too bad.
Thurs. with mcq paper out of the way lizhen and i raided SUPRE. oh yeah baby! busted 30 over bux buying 2 gorgeous tops. geez. lz is still trying to get me to wear those crazy tshirts.. Gal.. i love your taste , but those t shirts are a NONO. Had korean food with teh gang for dinner than off to crown bakery for cake.. haiiii.. the luxuries of being able to chill out with your buds. i was savouring every moment.
neway, gonna try to get a bit of muggin done. BUT WHOO HOO>. neuro is almost OVER. oh yeah!!!! PARTY COMING UP! ( can see lz bouncing with excitment) oh yez. we SHALL party our hair off, our butts off... and then it's off to singapore. hmm. puzzling, but i realised as the sems goes by, i feel less and less excited about returning. mixed feelings i suppose. like i 'd love to go back, but i know i'll miss melbourne too.. haha. i'm one screwed up perso.
ps. watched a doc about a sex maniac who raped and murdered 10 ppl in america.. omg..SIC MAN. juz sic.
check back soon for my routine post semester reflections.
EXAMS ARE OVER!!! ... okok. i'm kidding. it's almost over. i'm in no mood to study anymore.. crap. 2 more papers. but thank goodness the worst is over. so giving myself a break now.
the last week has been kinda hellish. since the study break, i've been stuck int eh lib on a daily basis with nic and char and aiai mugging my ass off, wondering why all the info bits were falling out of my head and why everything seemed so alien tho' i was supposed to have mugged it b4. Came sunday, i was like. OK. xueling, done enuff sutdying.. let's sleep and guezz wat??? i had MAJOR INSOMNIA> i think for the first time in my life, i actually sat for a 3hour paper with 3 hours of fragmented sleep. OMG. i was so horrified. And to top it off, i was allergic to coffee so that wasn't gonna pull me through my PBL and SAQ paper.
shit, i duno how i even kept awake thru the whole thing. Mebbe coz the paper was traumatic, that's why i actally could mantain a gold fish like state to finish it. Barely finish it actually. i dunno wat i was writing half the time.
went yumcha with the gang.. tried to sleep somemore and BINGO.. insomnia again. OMG. this was relaly a crisis. I had absolutely almost no contacgt with my health practise notes the whole semester and i was banking on tuesday to cram all my notes for wed's exam. But on monday night, i was too fatigued to do anything. It's scarey, having insomnia. Your eyes are wide wide open, your brain neurons are firing away ( you can almost here 'em. smoking ) but you're too tired to absorb anything. In the end, i was sooo despo, i ran to lizhen's house and got a sleepingpill from her. That helped a little, but the sleep was very fragmented. Tuesday was spent in teh lib with teh gang trying my darnest to cram a whole semester's work. We were freaking out so badly come night time. Yeah, even if the topic was my fav.. sex. I was too tired to enjoy studying it. Thank goodness sleep came that night and the exam was not too bad.
Thurs. with mcq paper out of the way lizhen and i raided SUPRE. oh yeah baby! busted 30 over bux buying 2 gorgeous tops. geez. lz is still trying to get me to wear those crazy tshirts.. Gal.. i love your taste , but those t shirts are a NONO. Had korean food with teh gang for dinner than off to crown bakery for cake.. haiiii.. the luxuries of being able to chill out with your buds. i was savouring every moment.
neway, gonna try to get a bit of muggin done. BUT WHOO HOO>. neuro is almost OVER. oh yeah!!!! PARTY COMING UP! ( can see lz bouncing with excitment) oh yez. we SHALL party our hair off, our butts off... and then it's off to singapore. hmm. puzzling, but i realised as the sems goes by, i feel less and less excited about returning. mixed feelings i suppose. like i 'd love to go back, but i know i'll miss melbourne too.. haha. i'm one screwed up perso.
ps. watched a doc about a sex maniac who raped and murdered 10 ppl in america.. omg..SIC MAN. juz sic.
check back soon for my routine post semester reflections.
Confessions of a Blur birthday gal.
The Mumsg had their first success birthday surprise of the year!!!! We have a really high screw up rate for surprises ( check out the stats)
1) lizhen’s bday: Omg… this was really funny. One of us let slip the plan of the surprise in the elevator with lz standing right in front.. LOL . then the whole extended gang crammed into ai and char’s room waiting for her to come home. And we waited… and we waited.. and we waited.. Our dear gal had a SALP meeting and didn’t come back till really really late.. and by that time we were talking really really loudly and she heard us from outside. Plus someone left a candle and matchsticks outside on the table…
2) Aiai’s bday: mags left her handphone outside when we sneaked into the kitchen. Next thing we heard aiai yelling :” Liiizhen… how come you bought a new phone???”
3) Char’s bday: lizhen hid me in the kitchen corner while aiai fetched j9. might have worked if not for lizhen’s screaming about 4getting to buy something and next thing I knew, I saw char peering at me..” Xl, wat are you doing here?”
4) Nic’s bday: nic marched into the room just as aiai was poised to light the candles.
5) Wanyen’s bday: got messed up by a thief who stole lz’s baggie from under my nose.
6) My bday??? Well, I messed up. But the gang didn’t J
I’ll be honest with you guys, I was feeling pretty mopey coz even tho’ I ‘m usually reluctant to celebrate my bday at home coz it always seems to concide with exams, I usually have my family around, and it’s only when I’m alone during the pre-exam period that it really hit me how much I took my family for granted during my bdaes, plus c’mon. muggin the brain stem seem slike an awful way to go haha.. I was hoping to get to see all you guys today. Pretty disappointed couldn’t see all u guys on my bday, but I told myself , hey, I had u guys all round the year , that was a huge huge blessing already, wat was one day vs. that?
I actually wanted to ask you guys out for dinner, but figured it would be really bad of me to take away your study time so I banished the idea. . It never occurred to me you would come to my house because j9’s mom was here.
the gang was really really smart… J they brought my presents to the law library.. even the cards were worded so carefully. I was all prepared to just spend my day mugging and then head home and mug somemore Even though nic was asking me wat time I was going back home, and wheter I was gonna come to the library later that night. I didn’t take much notice because u guys usually ask that anyway . .. aiai left early but I knew she usually had cell group on Tuesday, so I didn’t suspect anything. Nic always left when he got xianz with studying, so I didn’t figure anything too. . SO.. the bottom line was even tho’ I did muck up my routine that day, your routines saved u
I actually planned to study till 6pm, but then I got fed up trying to study cranial nerves w/o netters, so I left early. Had no idea how much I messed up their plans.. J the plan was that when I came back home, they would already be at my house . I recall thinking ( after I missed the tram by one min and had to stand there waiting for the next stupid tram to arrive ( for ppl back home in Singapore.. it was melb cup day, public holiday, yez a holiday for horse racing, so basically the trams were really infrequent . somemore raining outside, I was thinking, bloody hell. Wat awful weather Can’t even go for my jog
Came back home.. didn’t even take note of the other hints... Kelvin yelling to auntie that I was home and then asking if I was going jogging ( in the rain for goodness sakes J but then again, kelv, you always make me laugh anyway LOL) , I didn’t see auntie panicking and shutting the kitchen door, j9 did give me a strange look when she saw me home but I was too preoccupied to give it a 2nd thot. I actually wandered into the kitchen for a piece of j9’s cake and took a blur glance at the intricately arranged wonton on the plate and told auntie.. “ that’s a very nice presentation! My mom always tells me I can make edible food look inedible by dumping it on the plate. I need to learn how to make that kind of presentation.” Then took my cake , and drink and went to call me mom.. didn’t even see the enormous amount of food auntie cooked. Found out from my mom that my poor cousin’s kidneys finally failed and how he had to go on dialysis. I think that’s why I was pretty spaced out, coz I had my mind on that. Went to the kitchen, and was talking to auntie about my cousin, didn’t take much notice the huge amount of fruits on the table.
So blur manz.. didn’t even see nic’s car coming in even though my room overlooks the garage. didn’t even hear the gang coming up the stairs. I heard j9 jangling her keys but I just thot mebbe she left them in the lock again, like last time ( once again, routine saves the day).
And then juz as I flipped open my brain stem notes and was about to resign myself to the horrible fate of studying that bloody thing… j9 knocked on my door. ( at this point, ladies and gentleman, the only thing I thot was .. yay.. dinner’s ready, can go and sample the delicious looking wanton) I turned around and in burst the gang screaming happy birthday.
Basically, juz as a final evidence ( esp since to convince j9 J ) that I really really was surprised.. I screamed. I don’t usually scream unless I’m really really shocked. ( Kelvin, knows that … from the millions of times you have tried to scare me around the house.. LOL)
So we had pot luck and nic made this awesome tiramisu cake !!!! ( I actually heard mark raving about your cake the 2nd last week of school) yez, it lived up to the hype! It was soooooo good. ( cake business nic , cake business.. )
Gosh, thanks guys soooooo much for taking time off to give me this wonderful birthday. It’s really the biggest surprise I’ve had in a while, and I’m really touch ed by your guys sacrificing your study time for thiz manz. Really sweet of you to plan it ! I absolutely Looooove all my presents and best of all, the surprise! Thank you thank you thank you j9, lizhen, nic, Maggie,wanyen, aiai, char, kevl and j9’s mom for this wonderful 20th birthday I couldn’t think of a better way to hit the big 2 0 s !!!!
The Mumsg had their first success birthday surprise of the year!!!! We have a really high screw up rate for surprises ( check out the stats)
1) lizhen’s bday: Omg… this was really funny. One of us let slip the plan of the surprise in the elevator with lz standing right in front.. LOL . then the whole extended gang crammed into ai and char’s room waiting for her to come home. And we waited… and we waited.. and we waited.. Our dear gal had a SALP meeting and didn’t come back till really really late.. and by that time we were talking really really loudly and she heard us from outside. Plus someone left a candle and matchsticks outside on the table…
2) Aiai’s bday: mags left her handphone outside when we sneaked into the kitchen. Next thing we heard aiai yelling :” Liiizhen… how come you bought a new phone???”
3) Char’s bday: lizhen hid me in the kitchen corner while aiai fetched j9. might have worked if not for lizhen’s screaming about 4getting to buy something and next thing I knew, I saw char peering at me..” Xl, wat are you doing here?”
4) Nic’s bday: nic marched into the room just as aiai was poised to light the candles.
5) Wanyen’s bday: got messed up by a thief who stole lz’s baggie from under my nose.
6) My bday??? Well, I messed up. But the gang didn’t J
I’ll be honest with you guys, I was feeling pretty mopey coz even tho’ I ‘m usually reluctant to celebrate my bday at home coz it always seems to concide with exams, I usually have my family around, and it’s only when I’m alone during the pre-exam period that it really hit me how much I took my family for granted during my bdaes, plus c’mon. muggin the brain stem seem slike an awful way to go haha.. I was hoping to get to see all you guys today. Pretty disappointed couldn’t see all u guys on my bday, but I told myself , hey, I had u guys all round the year , that was a huge huge blessing already, wat was one day vs. that?
I actually wanted to ask you guys out for dinner, but figured it would be really bad of me to take away your study time so I banished the idea. . It never occurred to me you would come to my house because j9’s mom was here.
the gang was really really smart… J they brought my presents to the law library.. even the cards were worded so carefully. I was all prepared to just spend my day mugging and then head home and mug somemore Even though nic was asking me wat time I was going back home, and wheter I was gonna come to the library later that night. I didn’t take much notice because u guys usually ask that anyway . .. aiai left early but I knew she usually had cell group on Tuesday, so I didn’t suspect anything. Nic always left when he got xianz with studying, so I didn’t figure anything too. . SO.. the bottom line was even tho’ I did muck up my routine that day, your routines saved u
I actually planned to study till 6pm, but then I got fed up trying to study cranial nerves w/o netters, so I left early. Had no idea how much I messed up their plans.. J the plan was that when I came back home, they would already be at my house . I recall thinking ( after I missed the tram by one min and had to stand there waiting for the next stupid tram to arrive ( for ppl back home in Singapore.. it was melb cup day, public holiday, yez a holiday for horse racing, so basically the trams were really infrequent . somemore raining outside, I was thinking, bloody hell. Wat awful weather Can’t even go for my jog
Came back home.. didn’t even take note of the other hints... Kelvin yelling to auntie that I was home and then asking if I was going jogging ( in the rain for goodness sakes J but then again, kelv, you always make me laugh anyway LOL) , I didn’t see auntie panicking and shutting the kitchen door, j9 did give me a strange look when she saw me home but I was too preoccupied to give it a 2nd thot. I actually wandered into the kitchen for a piece of j9’s cake and took a blur glance at the intricately arranged wonton on the plate and told auntie.. “ that’s a very nice presentation! My mom always tells me I can make edible food look inedible by dumping it on the plate. I need to learn how to make that kind of presentation.” Then took my cake , and drink and went to call me mom.. didn’t even see the enormous amount of food auntie cooked. Found out from my mom that my poor cousin’s kidneys finally failed and how he had to go on dialysis. I think that’s why I was pretty spaced out, coz I had my mind on that. Went to the kitchen, and was talking to auntie about my cousin, didn’t take much notice the huge amount of fruits on the table.
So blur manz.. didn’t even see nic’s car coming in even though my room overlooks the garage. didn’t even hear the gang coming up the stairs. I heard j9 jangling her keys but I just thot mebbe she left them in the lock again, like last time ( once again, routine saves the day).
And then juz as I flipped open my brain stem notes and was about to resign myself to the horrible fate of studying that bloody thing… j9 knocked on my door. ( at this point, ladies and gentleman, the only thing I thot was .. yay.. dinner’s ready, can go and sample the delicious looking wanton) I turned around and in burst the gang screaming happy birthday.
Basically, juz as a final evidence ( esp since to convince j9 J ) that I really really was surprised.. I screamed. I don’t usually scream unless I’m really really shocked. ( Kelvin, knows that … from the millions of times you have tried to scare me around the house.. LOL)
So we had pot luck and nic made this awesome tiramisu cake !!!! ( I actually heard mark raving about your cake the 2nd last week of school) yez, it lived up to the hype! It was soooooo good. ( cake business nic , cake business.. )
Gosh, thanks guys soooooo much for taking time off to give me this wonderful birthday. It’s really the biggest surprise I’ve had in a while, and I’m really touch ed by your guys sacrificing your study time for thiz manz. Really sweet of you to plan it ! I absolutely Looooove all my presents and best of all, the surprise! Thank you thank you thank you j9, lizhen, nic, Maggie,wanyen, aiai, char, kevl and j9’s mom for this wonderful 20th birthday I couldn’t think of a better way to hit the big 2 0 s !!!!
